I am a middle-aged female whose occupation for over 30 years has been nursing. I was a Hospice nurse for the last 12 years of my nursing career. A number of people have asked me,”Isn’t Hospice nursing depressing?” I have consistently answered that question with a resounding “No.” The care of the patients was often intense but never depressing. Dying is a very intimate journey and when families and patients allowed me to join them on that journey it was indeed my privilege. Hospice work is so important! As a Hospice nurse I was able to impact a number of lives with comfort and support through a very difficult time. Yet, as wonderful and necessary as Hospice nursing is, I have felt over the last 5 years the urge to explore other directions. I admit I was scared to try other things. After all nursing was literally who I was as a person and what I knew the most about. As a person of faith, I did a lot of soul-searching and prayer yet felt God was not giving me any clear picture of what he had in store. Anyone who knows me knows I want some assurance in changing directions before I do so. God had blessed us in some areas financially so leaving a job with a certain paycheck was not as frightening as it could have been. Yet not being independently wealthy meant either I needed to find God’s direction and a new career quickly or rely on him. I must admit either one is hard. I resigned my position and have been off work for 2 weeks now. I am looking for God to grant me patience as I wait on his direction. I am trying to do what I see in front of me to do. The idea of a blog was brought to my attention so here we go. I will see where this leads. If nothing else it will help to perfect my writing skills and give an avenue to share my feelings and opinions.
February 4, 2012