I wrote this poem while a nurse in a dialysis unit. Dialysis patients struggle with a chronic illness with many restrictions. On a personal note I was struggling to accept some difficulties in my own life. I was able to see my spiritual situation through my patient’s physical struggles. The poem God gave me is called: “A Place I’d not Planned to Be.”
You come to this place and you sit in this chair
And shoulder again the illness you bear.
From the young to the old no favorites it plays,
And clearly affects you for the rest of your days.
The blood blows from your body and through the machine,
Washing and cleansing and making it clean.
Once doesn’t do it but three times a week,
You return again for its health that you seek.
You listen and learn some by hearing some by error
The hazards of fluid and salt, WHAT A TERROR!
So, you chose wrong and you even knew it,
From the scales to the cramping, you know you blew it.
Some days are good and your smile is so bright,
Other days are difficult, you want to give up the fight.
And as I take a moment and look in your face,
I see a reflection of my life in your case.
The events of my life weren’t quite what I planned,
And caused me to question the design of His hand.
So daily I come to the same quiet chair
And still there my heart in moments of prayer
And just as your blood needs cleansing again,
My life needs His cleansing, I’m dependant on Him.
He pulls from my life the poisons within,
And draws off the excess that would harm me again.
And from that cleansing comes the strength to arise
And face my day and the rest of my life.
And so through your courage He speaks to me,
To accept this place where I’d not planned to be.
Lynn Radke Written in 1999
Each of us struggle with happenings in our lives for which we did not plan. Yet God expects us to accept our place, be it triumph or struggle, and be strong in His power and might. To courageous dialysis patients everywhere, you inspired me at a crucial juncture in my life. Thank You for displaying such courage!