“We are what we believe we are.” C.S. Lewis
I came across this quote this morning as I contemplated the new year.
Possibly, like many of you, seeing my self as” less than,” is an ongoing battle. In rereading this thought, I realized I had once again allowed myself to focus on negative self thoughts.
The meal wasn’t good enough….
My company is lacking….
I’m not fun….
My personality is wrong….
I’m not contributing anything in life….
On and on, the thoughts marched through my tortured mind.
I’m pretty much an introvert. There, I’ve said it…..but an explanation must follow. It’s not that I don’t like friends and interactions with others, or that I always want to be alone. It’s just that too much contact with others drains me. I find small talk exhausting and need more downtime than most people. Extroverts receive energy from their interactions with others. But God did not create me to be an extrovert so I must be ok the way I am, right?
I remind myself that whether extroverted or introverted, I need to be the best me I can be. God loves me! He gave me the personality I have. I don’t recall Him asking my opinion on the deal.
I cannot seclude myself. I still want and need to reach out to others. However, it is ok if I’m not the life of the party or attend parties at all. I’m insightful, poetic, a writer, whether good or bad. Another way to touch others with my personality. I find peace and quiet, energizing and refreshing to my soul. I like to look inside myself to understand and reflect. But I don’t ALWAYS want to be alone!
I need to be the best me I can be, recognizing at times the need to reach out beyond my comfort zone to see and touch directly, the lives of others. To focus on the talents and abilities given me because of my personality. As with most of life principles, balance is key. If God is ok with me, and He IS the one I need to please, then I will have been successful, regardless of the thoughts and opinions of others. After all God says I am…..
…..and so are all of you!